We have very few days left as a two parent household and I? Am terrified. The first month isn't so scary, I am going to be with my in-laws the entire month. The second month scares me a little more, I am not used to sleeping alone in my house and I? Don't like to. I doubt I will sleep much this next year. When school starts is when I will really be a mess. Getting up every weekday at 7am, getting all four kids ready & out the door by 7:50am, having to pick the girls up at 3:15pm every weekday. Girl Scouts, field trips, school functions, sports, all of this scares me to death. I am most worried about losing it on my kids, it happened a couple of times when we were in MA and I am so not proud of those moments. I don't like yelling at them, but sometimes you are just so frustrated you can't even think and the only way to get their attention is to scream. I still don't like myself that way. Before we moved to MA, I NEVER had a moment like that.
As the days fly by I will be growing more and more stressed out and worried. I know I will have my good days and my bad ones, I just hope when it is all over with I will have little to none of those not so proud of myself days.
Lillyanna Margaret
My oldest and bossiest child (so far).
Aidan RoseLynn
My most dramatic and hilarious child.
Sophia Grace
My loudest and sweetest child, quickly becoming the bossiest.
Delilah Annette
My baby, my sweetness, and my quietest child.
Mom & Dad aka Nonnie & Pa
My parents
Jason, Rosy, & Alan
My Brother, Sister-in-law, & Nephew. Rosy came as an exchange student from Mexico a few years ago. She lived with my parents after her host family had troubles. She then met my brother who was still in college and living out of the house. They fell in love and the rest is history.
Green
He came 5yrs ago as an exchange student and has yet to leave. I now consider him my brother.
Ahhh...Ten Years Ago
3 comments:
Whatever you do, don't hold your frustration in. Believe me, being on your own for a year....you are entitled to a little frustration now and again. :-)
Hugs...
It's very hard, especially in the beginning. Hard for me with only one, so times 4 for you. But I managed and so will you. You're an awesome mom, love your children, and know what you're doing. It may take some time to find your rhythm but hang in there and it'll get easier. I've only got 2 more weeks to go... woot! Meanwhile here's some advice - don't hesitate to ask for help. Whether it's asking someone to babysit one or two or all kids, run an errand for you, or just let you call them to vent -don't hesitate to let someone know what you need.
And if you get free time? Don't waste it doing laundry or cleaning... try to multitask that with other things. TAKE THAT MOMENT OF FREE TIME FOR YOURSELF TO CATCH YOUR BREATH.
hey there... don't be so hard on yourself. yay, it isn't that glamorous to yell at your kids, but honestly as they get older they aren't even going to remember that moment... AT. ALL. they will remember all the things you did with them and the places you showed them and took them and how loving and caring you are and what an excellent mother you are.
besides i think we all have these moments. honestly i'm a yeller. i wish i wasn't and i really am trying to get control of it... it isn't nice and there is no real reason for it... but it is something i have to work on.... not saying that this should make you feel better or that i'm proud of this but just to let you know you aren't alone, and honestly to yell at them once or twice... ever is really not that bad. :)
being a single parent would scare the shit out of me, i couldn't imagine doing it for a week let alone a year. sometimes bryan goes away for long weekends, and it is only once or twice a year and i feel like i'm lost with only 3 children... i couldn't imagine what you are going through. but i know you are a strong person and an excellent mother, so you will do just fine... plus you have tons of love and support from your family... just don't be afraid to say you need some help once in a while... it is okay if you aren't always able to handle it all, no on excpects you to...
lots of luck and love!
jenn
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