He's Gone, Again....

It's harder this time around. I am alone with the girls this time around. My entire family is out of town right now, parents in Chicago, brother in Mexico. It's just harder this time. Before I had Judy here to keep my mind busy and the first two months I went non-stop from activity to activity. It also doesn't help that it's winter right now and I haven't been going out as much before he arrived.

His visit was wonderful, but far too short and went by far too fast. We had barely a day to sit and do nothing. We had two family portrait sessions in two weeks. Three family dinners in two weeks. One dinner out alone,a dinner out with my family, and a dinner out with just his family. We also had Christmas Eve dinner at my parents house and Christmas dinner here at our house. Both dinners were delicious. The girls received way too many presents from everyone. We had Lilly's play to go to and Kale spent a day volunteering at the school. We had a morning of baking with the kids, Meme, and Judy. The women went out shopping the morning after Christmas. Kale took the girls to the movies twice they saw Bolt and The Tale of Despereaux. It was a busy busy two weeks but it was a happy two weeks.

Thankfully Delilah and Sophia are better. Delilah hated her meds and they had to be force fed to her or hidden in food. FUN! She has also not regained her appetite as of yet. Hopefully she will get it back soon.


I leave you with our second family photo shoot:

Kale, David, and Judy

In-Laws David and Judy

Delilah didn't want to hold still but sat still when we sat her on the sled.

Sophia and her silly smile.

Aidan's sillier smile.

Lilly

This isn't the best one of the four of them, but it's the funniest.

Four generations of Kale's family. His Dad David and his grandma Margaret aka Nanny.

Sickness is Running Rampent

Delilah was up all night. When we left our house yesterday at 4:30pm to go to Famous Dave's for Kale's belated birthday dinner she was fine. By the time she entered the restaurant she was screaming in pain and burning up. I held her for awhile, then my mom walked her around until she feel asleep. We had given her Tylenol before we left the house but the fever burned on even so. She slept on my mother and I all though dinner (thankfully) so dinner was bearable. We left as soon as we paid as she had woken up and was screaming and still burning up. Rich (a family friend and doctor) suggested we get Ibuprofen instead and give that to her. We picked some up and gave it to her right away, by the time we were home the fever was gone and she was happy. We put her to bed at 9pm and by 11pm when we crawled into bed she was up screaming her head off. She was up crying or watching tv with Kale all night long. I think she finally slept from 2am to 7am.

Luckily yesterday at lunch time Sophia cried and cried her ear hurt. So I made appointments for both her and Delilah to be seen today, just in case. I knew they wouldn't be working in the next couple of days so it was just smart to be safe. Sure enough they both have double ear infections, lucky lucky us. Poor girls are miserable. I spent the day shopping with my mom and Meme, so Kale had to deal with them all day alone. Which I don't feel any guilt about at all, as I had to deal with the 3 days of sleepless nights, diarrhea, and vomiting all alone a few months ago. By the time I got home Delilah was exhausted you could see the bags under her eyes. Hopefully she will sleep tonight, tomorrow is a busy busy day. I just hope the meds have kicked in by tomorrow, enough to keep her mellow and get her feeling a little better. Poor baby. :(

Alone Tonight!

Kale and I are getting to go out to dinner alone tonight, thanks to my mom offering to watch all the girls for us. I think she may even keep all four over night for once. Not that I really care, usually once Delilah is in bed she is there for the night.

Kale had lunch with Aidan today and read her class a story or two. He even took Sophia with him, which was nice. I got to be alone for awhile as Delilah went down for a nap and is still down. She doesn't feel well and had her immunizations given to her yesterday. I was surprised they let her get them as she was coming down with a cold. I think she is moving on to ear infection now. FUN!

Kale and Sophia are going back to the school here in a little while for Lilly's holiday party. Then after school we are dropping the four of them at my mom's house for the rest of the evening. He finally decided he wants to eat at Olive Garden and have dessert at Cheesecake Factory. Fine by me.

Tomorrow the six of us are going to see Bolt and having lunch at Panera Bread, after the girls clean their rooms. And we have to put our tree up still. :S This is the first time since I have been an adult that my tree has not gone up the day after Thanksgiving. I just couldn't lift it by myself and we have been so busy the last two days.

We were lucky Kale was able to get on the very first flight out of Jacksonville on Wed. I was worried we were going to miss our family picture appointment. That was a whirlwind day. We picked Kale up, went to Walmart, came home, got ourselves and the younger two ready, went and surprised the girls at the school, came home, got them ready, met Jason & Rosy so they could follow us, got our pictures done, high tailed it to the school just in the nick of time for Lilly's play, watched the play, and came home where everyone (my parents and the teens also) had pizza for dinner. It was tiring, but a good day.

All of our days, I think, will be tiring but good. Kale just caught Sophia painting her finger and toe nails. One of my aunts bought Aidan make-up, AGAIN, this year. They never think of me when they buy such things. Last year Aidan painted the walls and her toys with the nail polish. It's not peel off nail polish either, GRRR!

Hope everyone has a fun weekend!

More Christmas Ideas: I start early I know...

I ordered blocks for every one's rooms from another seller on Etsy. These are what she came up with for the kids:

I picked these out for Lilly out of some she already had displayed. They match her new bedding set perfectly.

For Sophia I asked if she could find penguins and as you can see she delivered just that.

Alan's were another set I picked from ones she had displayed. My brother played soccer since he was 4 all the way up through college and still plays occasionally now.

And for Delilah...

She is still working on horses for Aidan, but says she will be done soon. I am happy for the way they all turned out so far and her prices are very reasonable.

Delilah had Sophia's sickness this weekend, lucky me. She didn't have it nearly as long though. I think because she doesn't equate eating with pooping yet. We had a pretty quiet weekend. Did a little shopping with my mom & the teens and had dinner at my parents house. Jason even stayed since Rosy and Alan are out of town for her cousin's wedding. The older three girls spent the night with my parents and Delilah even let me sleep in until 9am this morning!

Hope everyone else had a great weekend.

Cabin Fever

I did manage to get Sophia an appointment today, but what I figured would happen, happened. Her fever finally broke at about 5am this morning. I had to give her a shower in the dark (well by light of nightlight). Why? Because I didn't want either of us to fully wake up. She didn't have any fever reducer by the time we went to the doctor and her temperature was 99.7, borderline.

Her mood and overall happiness has not changed however. She is stil whinny, won't eat much with out me coaxing, reasoning, or when all else fails threatening her. The doctor said she seems to have turned the corner. Of course she thought so, Sophia was bouncing around like a lunatic in the office. As soon as we got home? Laid on the couch and whined for things. I think she is playing me, or at least trying to. I am not easily played, she doesn't realize Aidan preceded her and I have had a lot of practice. She did have Sophia give a urine sample to check for infection. Thankfully they gave us a hat to catch the pee, I have horribly vivid memories of me holding a cup under Aidan BEGGING her to pee in it for 30mins+ about a year or so ago. I was worried I would have a repeat experience and I am glad I did not. I was lucky Rosy came over with Alan to stay with Delilah. I didn't want to interrupt her nap again for this BS. Plus I didn't want to deal with her if Sophia had had to give blood. In turn I watched Alan while she and Jason went to lunch.

The rest of my afternoon consisted of picking up kids, going to the commissary with 5 girls (I take V to girl scouts every other week and her mom takes mine the other weeks), then dropping them all off at girl scouts, went home, put the younger two to bed, begged my mom to come sit with them while I went to the parents meeting for Lilly's camping trip, came home, and fed them. Now I am resuming my search for unique Christmas gifts for the girls. I have found a few really cute things so far. I have been stuck at home, so I have been searching Etsy high and low. I hate feeling trapped and that's just how I have felt everyday since last Wednesday with the exception of Saturday.

This, too, shall pass.

ARGH!!!

We went to the doctor on Friday, well Sophia did, and I was informed she has a "case of the yuckies." I would like to know exactly what those are and why they haven't left her body yet. I would be okay with that diagnosis IF she still weren't getting fevers every time the fever reducer wore off. As far as the diarrhea goes, it's almost gone at least the really watery stuff (TMI I know), but she is still complaining about her tummy hurting. She has hardly eaten, which is freaking me out now. At this point I KNOW she would feel better (her tummy at least) if she would eat. She takes very little bits of food at every meal, enough to keep her alive basically. I am so tired of this. She is whinny and lies around all day when the fever reducer wears off and is kicking in. When it has kicked in she bounces around like a kangaroo. I am fresh out of sympathy at this point, although truth be told I never had much of it to start with. I know she is sick, I can see it, but if she won't do what will make her feel better I refuse to feel sorry for her anymore. Harsh probably, but that's how my mom was with us too.

I am hoping to take her to her regular doctor tomorrow. She is much more cautious than the b*tch we saw on Friday. She looked at her for five minutes and kicked us out. I am not pleased, fevers don't stay around for this long unless something is wrong, it's almost been a week. When we saw the doctor it had been three nights of constant fevers. I am hating being alone this weekend. :(

Sick kids and other fun stuff....

I wrote and scheduled all of this weeks posts on Tuesday, I am kind of glad I did. Sophia has been sick since Wednesday morning. All of Wednesday she had diarrhea, I assumed it was just because of all the apple juice she had been drinking. But I quickly realized that I had just bought the pack of apple juice boxes the day before, their were only two gone, and before that I hadn't bought any in two weeks. She seemed fine all day other than the diarrhea and ate alright, not great but okay. Then that evening she became feverish. Since then it has been down hill. She was cold, feverish, and still having diarrhea all day yesterday. I gave her some Imodium to help with the diarrhea but she still wouldn't eat or hardly drink anything. She laid on the couch all day.

Aidan joined her on the couch yesterday morning also. But she had vomited twice, once as we were getting into the van and once after she had been laying around for awhile. I knew it was coming, she woke me up at 6am with her howls. I gave her three options 1) lay in bed and be quiet, 2) get up and see if she is hungry, that maybe that's why her tummy hurt, or 3) get up and go poop. She choose #1, you have to be direct with her in order to keep the drama to a minimum. I don't feel guilty about being stern with her anymore, even when she does her best "kicked my puppy in the face" look of despair. After lunch, which she ate an entire sleeve of saltines and drank a whole bottle of water, she bounced around this house like a kangaroo on crack. Seriously, that irritates me to no end. If you are home sick you need to have the decency to ACT sick. Plus she wouldn't quit touching all over Delilah and getting in her face. Even after I told her multiple times to stop and how I didn't need Delilah to get it. I told her she doesn't have to take care of a sick baby, I do and frankly I don't want to.

Sophia on the other hand ate nothing, drank little (even though I pleaded with her), and laid on the couch drifting in and out of sleep all day long. I would only allow her to have a sheet, she was laying under an Afghan and her body was burning up. I realize why she did it, but I also realize she shouldn't be doing it. I alternated Tylenol and ibuprofen all day long. Didn't seem to help much. She has an appointment this morning. At least for the most part the diarrhea is gone. She needs to eat though and drink a lot more. She did drink a glass of chocolate milk last night (I know it's not the best thing for her, but I am desperate at this point) and she drank half a bottle of water in the night. But she also had a bout of diarrhea in the middle of the night and came into bed with me at 6am. At least Delilah is sleeping better and I hope if she gets the sickness, she gets the poopies not the pukies.

So that has been my life the last few days. One of the few times I have been almost beside myself without Kale here.

Hope everyone else has a better weekend then I may have. :P

A Very Bad Week...

I am sorry I went MIA, but I have been dealing with a lot of BS this week. I can finally tell this story because it's 100% OVER. The person who caused this mess is in deep trouble. Article 15 if you know military terms, if not it means he is being demoted and losing half his pay for 6mths.

Why does he deserve such? Because he just about ruined my marriage, could have done worse if I am not the person I am, or if Kale had not been able to get to the bottom of things super quickly.

It started last Friday, I had asked Kale for all of his passwords to all of his emails and such so if I felt like checking them I could. He knows all of mine so we have nothing to hide, and he gave them to me willingly. Plus something happened to someone I know recently crushing my reality about my "perfect family life" being able to go on as "perfect" forever. Let's just say it gave me pause.

Well, I checked his Yahoo, nothing interesting there just normal family stuff. Then I check his Gmail, his sister and his friend Dave are the only ones who usually email him there. I start looking through and I come upon two emails that had been sent out to someone named J.D. and right away I became sick. I opened them and they were from "Kale" to this JD person thanking her for the naked pictures and asking her if she would like anything in return. You can imagine my response.

I began hyperventilating and scrambling to call Kale. A few minutes later he gets online at the library (he had told me he would after work so we could talk). I immediately begin attacking him with questions and he immediately begins denying all allegations. He begs me to believe him, but there in front of me I have the "proof". I show him the emails, he starts to freak out, and says he is going home and calling me right then. I wait for 15 agonizing minutes and he finally calls.

Before I go on with that conversation I will tell you what he did on his way to his house. On his way to his house he used his cell to call the two guys he was allowing to use his computer when he lived in the apartment (he had recently moved into a house). He left them a message saying they had better explain what the bleep they were doing on his email. You see, Kale is a very trusting man he had all of his email passwords saved in his computer and was allowing these two guys full access, unsupervised, to use his laptop. Stupid I know.

He calls me and I am bawling, he begins to break down and cry and swears up and down it wasn't him. He wouldn't do this to me, he loves me, he loves our kids, he just doesn't need anyone else, and for me to please believe him. It's hard for me. He explains how he let these two guys use his computer and just then his cell rings. I can here him yelling at the first guy, interrogating him, he knows nothing. The second guy gets on and I hear a lot of Kale screaming at the guy about how stupid it was he used Kale's email and how I had found it and was so upset. He screams at the guy that he will talk to him later.

He gets back on the phone and explains what happened to me. Apparently this guy, instead of making a fake email, used Kale's to send and receive pictures of some girl he was chatting with online. He said that he didn't want his wife to find out. He thought he had deleted everything. We now know there is more to it than just this, but I will get to it. So Kale is pissed and I am relieved. We talk for quite awhile and by the end of our conversation I am back to normal, feeling better, he is still pissed and is threatening to kick the guy's ass. I try and calm him down, tell him it's not worth jeopardizing his career over it.

He calls me later that night to tell me how PT went. He had his 1SG go with him to keep him in check. He was mad that the guy thought it was no big deal. Kale lunged at him and 1SG had to grab him and hold him back. The guy didn't even show the slightest bit of remorse, until Kale told him how I was hyperventilating and crying, then he looked at the ground the rest of the talk. After Kale left 1SG stayed behind to talk to the guy, even threatened to tell his wife.

So then my weekend went on peacefully. Monday came and my world was shattered once again, at the hands of this guy, and this time it was worse.

I will finish tomorrow.... Just so you know everything is alright with me and my marriage. And that I have 100% proof that my husband did not do the things I thought he did. If I didn't have the proof I would still be questioning him, as maybe some of you might.

Just Another Monday

I shut my alarm off then woke up in a mild panic. Not so bad, we were still early getting to school. It was finally a chilly morning, which is really unusual in KS in Aug. I actually had to go back in the house to get the girls jackets. The only ones that weren't upstairs put away were the Royal's sweatshirts.

Friday was parent teacher conferences, early I know. They tell us that it's just in case we have questions. The only question I had was whether or not Aidan was behaving. Her teacher said she is doing great, different from Lilly but still doing very well. Lilly's teacher and I went over what she had to tell me and that was it, I was out of there in under 5 mins. I was in and out of the school in 15 mins. Conferences never last long for us anyways. The girls like school and are pretty good and we trust the teachers to do their job, we don't need a lot of explanation. I really only like to go to hear how great my kids are doing, everyone likes to hear they are doing a good job.

Today we went to have the oil changed in the van. While they were doing that, we walked to Target and then to Panera Bread for lunch. I did finally find what I am getting Delilah for her birthday, but unfortunately I cannot find a picture of it online. I didn't buy it today because Sophia was with me and was getting pissy about not getting anything. Normally I don't care if she does get mad, tough, but today I didn't know how long we would have to hang out so I just decided to wait to buy it. I still have no clue what to get Sophia. I guess I have another week before I have to panic about that. They both slept all the way home, but that was only 30mins. And then by the time we got home it was too late to lay them back down. So they are grumpy.

Friday night ( I am jumping back and forth I know) Rosy came and helped me clean while Jason took the three younger girls. Lilly stayed to help us. We cleaned for 2 1/2 hours and only got the livingroom, down stairs bathroom, and closet cleaned. I did shampoo the carpet though, so that took a lot of time. It looks really nice. I am doing the office today, since the cat was sick in there all day on Thursday. We spot cleaned but it needs to be deep cleaned. The same is true for the laundry room rug, but I will have to wait until she is better to do that one. Poor kitty, she is going to the vet soon. It's weird because she doesn't look or act sick, she is just vomiting a lot. She is not eating very well though but is still drinking and using the litter box fine. Hopefully it's just a virus or something and she will be better soon. I was worried she was dead today, I couldn't get her to come to me or even meow. I had my brother come look for her while I was gone, in case she was dead. He found her, but she wouldn't come out. I will try again after I pick the girls up from school.

Speaking of which, it's time to go. Maybe I will have something more interesting to say tomorrow. :P

What did you do at 6am, in complete darkness?

Want to know what I did?

Woke up to a baby who had soaked her diaper, clothing, and bedding. Had to strip her down, give her a bath, strip her bed, remake her bed, get a new bottle ready, get her out of the bath, dry her off, dress her, lay her back down, and pray she went back to sleep. I had to do all of that in complete darkness or risk waking her up all the way. Thankfully she did go back to sleep and let me sleep in until 8:30am.

My neighbors pit bull puppy has been wandering in and out of my yard the last few days. Makes me so happy. It's driving Kuddle, our dog, completely insane. And on top of being in our yard yesterday, with his own following right behind him, he also pooped in my yard. I tapped the window to get his attention and called out "Could you please keep your dog out of my yard from now on, he's driving my dog crazy!" To which he mumbled, uh yeah um alright.

My cat, who is a large 20lb black cat of an unknown age, is throwing up a large amount the last two days. I am worried about her, at first they were hairballs, normal since she is a very long haired cat. Now it's just white stuff. I am afraid she is sick and/or dying. We have had her for a little over 7 years and her previous owner said she was around 3-4, so she is no young kitty anymore. I am going to take her to the vet while my mil is here, but until she can go she will be spending her days in the garage. Poor kitty, I love her, but I can't have her throwing up all over my floors, we have carpet. My kids would be happy if she passes, they want new kittens and I told them they had to wait until she was gone. They always say "I don't want BC to die, but I want kittens." I hope she will be alright and live on a few more years, but right now I am not so sure.

It's not a good day for me. Plus I have to go to parent teacher conferences today, Rosy is coming to watch the little girls while the big girls and I go. So I will be a big ball of nerves, not because of what the teachers might say, more because I have to socialize with every Tom, Dick, and Harry (more like three ladies names, since mostly only mommies come to these things). At least I don't have to take all of my children with me. I really don't have to take any of them, but the other kids go and they talk while the parents are in with the teacher. My kids are into the social scene, so they will go.

Hope everyone has a better day than I am.

I must be feeling better...

I think a lot of my mood the last few days was because of lack of sleep. I have been so busy the last month. I finally sat most of yesterday at home, even took a nap or two. So I believe lack of sleep and my allergies have really drug my mood down more than normal.

My week is shaping up like this Monday-Wednesday-Friday-AND-Sunday I will have been or will be at the airport. Monday I had to take Florence from Belgium to the airport, she and her host mom had a falling out last Friday night and she spent the weekend with us. My mom had to work, so I being a good daughter took her for my mom. Lele, Sophia, and Aidan went along for the ride. It rained terribly and luckily her flight went off on time.

Today we have to pick Judy up from the airport. Then we are going to Famous Dave's for Kale's going away family dinner. I really have no clue what we are doing Thursday besides spending time with Kale and packing his stuff up. Friday morning early we are back to the airport to drop him off. Friday night my mom talked me into going to a rodeo. We are going to the Flint Hills Rodeo, apparently it's the longest running professional rodeo in KS. It starts at 8pm, but it's a 2hr drive there, so we will be out late. Saturday we are having Lele's going away dinner at Mongolian BBQ (yuck), I am not sure how much Judy will complain about this. I am not sure she has ever been there or not. She is adamant that we have to be home for the Belmont Stakes Race, to see if Big Brown can take the Triple Crown. Whatever! I am not planning my life around a horse race, I will Tivo it for her or she can keep her butt home.

Sunday Lele leaves around 5pm. The rest of the night will undoubtedly be spent packing and panicking. Monday we drive to TN. Judy actually asked me if I thought we should drive for 8hrs then spend the night in a hotel. It's an TEN HOUR DRIVE! I said politely "Nope, I prefer to do all ten hours in one day." I am such a rebel. She is already driving me a little nuts and she's not even here yet. But we'll be okay. I just am not a big fan of BS and she is the queen of BS. Everything wrong with my husband can be traced back to her and how she raised him. Despite all of this I still love her and I know as far as MIL's go, I could have one that is SO MUCH WORSE! I have heard horror stories. I will try not to complain too much about her this next month, but please bear with me.

How do I know I am feeling better? I agreed to go on a two hour drive with four kids and my MIL to go to a rodeo. I must be out of my mind. :P

Preventative Medicine

I went to the "doctor" today. My PCM is a Physician's Assistant hence the quotes. I hate this woman. I have been to her probably once or twice every six months since we have been here, I don't go to the doctor much. Every time I am there she is rude, bitchy, and rushes me out. I am finally ready to complain about her and get a new PCM.

I went in because of my out of control allergies, I have been miserable. I now have 4 medications to take for my allergies, Flonase, Singular, Allegra, and Patanol. And then for good measure, since I have been a big ball of nerves lately, I have decided to go back on Welbutrin. I took it for about a year when we were in hell and I want to prevent myself from spiralling out of control. I am not completly feeling hopeless yet, but I prefer not to get to that point and take care of it now.

In other health news since I am sharing way TMI anyways. Lilly may have premature adrenarche, basically she has hair growth in her armpits and major BO already. Not normal for her age, especially since the BO has been going on for over 2 years. Sometime in July she has to go see an Endocrinologist. They will do a full blood work up and possibly a bone scan to be sure her bones are growing at a normal rate. Nothing in life is simple or easy, at least not in my life.

For the next year you can expect big ups and downs from me. I work that way. I try not to feel sorry for myself every day and I won't. But right now, I am feeling really badly. The deadline is near and I am not pleased. I am actually terrified.

Feeling Better

The NyQuil really helped, I feel much better. I am still exhausted though. Mom and I shopped all morning. Actually rode in the car more than shopped, we went to one town looking for a custom home furnishings shop only to learn it had moved to the city. So that was a good hour and a half wasted riding around in the car, glad she drove and wasted her gas. I was able to escape my children all day, only spending from 4-7pm with them. That sounds kind of bad, but I am taking every chance I get to be alone now before Kale leaves.

We had dinner (parents, exchange students, us, Jason, & Rosy) at Famous Dave's. Nais leaves the 19th to go home to France and next weekend is far too busy, so we had our last dinner out together tonight. (It's actually 11:10pm on Saturday, even though I am posting it on Sunday). After dinner Kale took the girls home and I hung out with my mom and dad. We went to a nursery to get her water plants and koi for her fountain. Then we went home to put them in the fountain. Went to Home Depot, Walmart, and the grocery store. I had planned on going home after that, but Nais needed help with her final. She had a 200 clue crossword puzzle to do and it was difficult for her since it was a lot of proper English and cliche's Americans use. I was able to help her with all but three, pretty good since I haven't been in an English class in 10 years.

Mother's Day plans are to go to the KC Zoo and have a picnic. Then to my parents for steaks.

Have a great Mother's Day!

Womanhood

I am in a horribly bad mood. I went to bed last night at 9:30, very unusual for me. Delilah has taken to getting up at the butt crack of dawn. I am not fond, as I have said before, of getting up before 7am. I was feeding her her morning bottle and Kale forgot to turn off his alarm when he went to shower. URGH! Oh, I am also have pms and I am getting a cold, so you can see what kind of mood I am in. I go in to take a shower and he has used almost all the hot water, the man has no hair on his head it kills me that it takes him longer to shower than it does for me. I know he shaves his face in the shower, but I can shave my legs ankle to ankle and my pits and still take a shorter shower. Plus he came in to hang up his towel and I had hung my bra and underwear on the towel bar. Now he never uses this towel bar, he always has hung his towel on the back of the door. Yeah instead he moves my underthings on top of the toilet (gross) and hangs his towel. At that point I didn't see him do it, I was already in the shower with my glasses off. I get out and notice them sitting there, gross! He was not happy when I pointed this out to him, apparently I have been short with him all morning. Cry me a river.

To better my mood I am going shopping with Rosy today, but I have to be back by 2pm for Aidan's teacher's retirement party. It's a surprise the room mother's and children came up with. Her husband is even coming. It will be nice. I have known her teacher since I was a child, her son and my bro were best friends from grade school on up. Now my bro works with her husband. She has been a really great teacher for Aidan, she can handle her well. Plus she loves Aidan, who doesn't. Aidan really is lucky she is cute and charming, otherwise people wouldn't tolerate her short comings very well.

I've been very bad...

I just ordered a camera to keep in my purse, a case, a memory card, and a memory card reader for it. :S


I have a really NICE camera, but it's a Canon Digital EOS Rebel, so it's HUGE. Plus it doesn't take video and the digital video camera I bought sucks. It was cheap, I got it during black friday a couple of years ago. So I got the new camera for those times when I can't or don't want to take my big bulky camera with me.


In other news, Lilly and Aidan had their first soccer games last night. I watched Lilly's with Delilah and Kale watched Aidan's with Sophia. Wednesday we will switch. It was too cold though and now Delilah has a stuffy nose. She's also teething again, which makes her oh so pleasant.


Back to the game. Lilly played goalie for the first 15 mins, she stopped every shot (3) from going in. One of them she stopped with her forehead. It was hilarious. I was very impressed she didn't roll around on the ground crying. She shook it off quite well, not even a tear. The rest of the game she played forward, she did well trying to keep up with the other kids. But she is not a runner, especially for distance. But overall I was very impressed, there is hope she will not become her father's daughter athletically. SIDE NOTE: I would never say any of this near her or around her, I always tell her she is doing great. As long as they try their best I am proud.


I will get the stupid SD card from my mom tonight so I can finally tell about the game.


Oh yeah, my trashy cousin who was knocked up at 16? (I am in no way saying every girls who gets pregnant at 16 or younger is trashy, my cousin just happens to be one that is) Yeah she's in jail. Guess what for? FELONY child endangerment. This is the second time she has been caught by her mother leaving her son alone in the apartment while she and her 33yr old boyfriend went to the bar to drink. First off, she is 19 now and the baby is 2, so she can't drink and he certainly should NEVER be left alone. The first time my aunt caught them leaving him alone she didn't call the cops, so stupid I know. My mom did call anonymously to CPS and report it and they said they'd "look into it". Well that never happened. My aunt kept him for a month and my husband and I were going to try and convince my cousin to let us adopt him.


Well she came back and did a song and dance for my aunt and she bought it. She said she'd keep her eye on them and had been, so we backed off. But this weekend it had been a few weeks since she had checked in the middle of the night, so she did. The house was all lit up with lights, but no one answered. She heard Noah wake up and cry, then fall back to sleep. So instead of calling the cops right then, she was stupid and went to the bar to confront them. She demanded they take her back to the apartment, they did and she took the baby and called the cops. The cops came and arrested them and they have been in jail since Friday night. They saw the judge yesterday and were formally charged with felony criminal endangerment and a misdemeanor child endangerment. Their bond is at $20,000, so she will stay in jail until the trial. My aunt and uncle have temporary custody for 3mths until her trial. I just have no clue where she came from, this is not what my family, HER family is like. Kale wants to try and get the baby again, but I don't know if she would give up rights or if my aunt would agree it's the best, again.


Any opinions or advice?

My Poor Baby

Delilah is sick, yet again. She had a well baby appointment today that turned into a sick baby appointment. She is already behind on her shots because of the the pneumonia and us being out of town for half of March. Then of course I couldn't get her an appointment as soon as we returned from FL so that didn't help. The poor baby has a double ear infection. She has got to be my sickest kid by far. Lilly and Aidan had a bad few months during the 6mths they were in daycare, but she doesn't go anywhere. I swear I am going to buy a hazmat shower and make my older girls walk through it when they get home from school.

Soccer practice starts tonight for Lilly and Aidan. They have practice at the same time, but at different fields across post from each other. It's okay for now since Kale can take one and I can take the other, but should he have to do something in the evening it will be hell. So now we will be busy Tues-Thurs with activities and when ever the games are played, I am assuming on the weekends. My head is spinning.

I also received an e-mail from Lilly's girl scout leader and they have like 50 million activities planned for the next month and half. This weekend is Great Wolf Lodge. They are using their cookie money to spend the night there, just like last year. She will have fun, so that's good. Then they have a trip to the Vet Clinic, a trip to Social Suppers, a Daddy/Daughter Dance, the Daddy/Daughter Campout, the bridging ceremony, and Day camp. I had forgotten, thankfully this leader is on top of things, that I need to buy drinks for the Great Wolf Lodge and have them at the meeting tomorrow. I forget a lot these days.

Then this weekend Aidan has a birthday party at the Carousel Museum. And then she has a Garden Party next Thursday. And sometime before Rosy and Alan leave for Mexico we have to get the pictures redone. I think they leave in two weeks and we can't do it after they get back because she will probably leave him there for a few weeks and Nais goes home the 19th of May. Can you say AHHHHH??? Busy is good, right? RIGHT?

Fun Filled Day.....and it's only 10am

Delilah has taken to waking me everyday before 7am and making sure that I can't get back to sleep before it's time to get up. This morning she was even more rude, she feel asleep just as I had to get up and I had to go wake her up to take the girls to school. That breaks on of my rules Never wake a sleeping baby.

After we got home from dropping them off, I lost track of time reading blogs and was nearly late leaving for Delilah's doctor's appointment. Oh and It's freaking snowing, AGAIN! I swear, I thought I moved away from MA. As I was going down the hill I started to slide and had to run the stop sign to avoid sliding right into the ditch. I am okay driving on snow or ice unless 2 minutes into my drive I have something like that happen. At least I don't panic and I know how to correct myself without creating more problems.

We got to the clinic and her appointment is for next week. SHIT! Kale makes her another one for this afternoon, but it's not with the doctor I trust. So I have him cancel it and I talk to the doctor's nurse. She assures me I am doing everything right for treating her pneumonia. Which is all I really wanted to know. So we go home, Delilah screeching all the way there.

I get home and make her a bottle. Walk into the living room and see something weird on the carpet. Upon closer inspection and a poke of my finger, I find out it's Aidan's fish Rainbow. Stupid F*ing cat ate only the head and left the rest on the floor for me to clean up. He could have at least had the decency to finish the meal and just left me wondering where the fish had gone (like I wouldn't have known). (As I was finishing typing this he actually went over to where he left the damn thing and gave me a dirty look as if to say I was gonna finish that!)

It can only get better from here, RIGHT???

Aidan? Is NOT Sick.

So Aidan is home sick from school, again. Granted she did feel like crap and had diarrhea when she arrived home, but after an hour of being home she is back to normal. Bouncy, bubbly, normal.

However, Delilah? Yeah, found out FINALLY today that indeed she has pneumonia. And it's viral, so all the antibiotics she is on right now probably won't help any. Did I mention we had to track the doctor down and it took us two days to finally get the results of her x-ray? His nurse didn't like my bitchy attitude, but I don't really give a flying flip. If he isn't doing his job or doing what he said he would (he said he'd call Monday with the results, at 2pm Monday we called, they just got back to us at 11am today Tuesday and that was only after my husband went to see him and left him a handwritten note). Thankfully her PCM (primary care manager) will be back on Friday for her 6mth well baby. I think it's safe to say she will not be getting shots this time around, at least until she is better. The other doctor wants her to keep with the antibiotics since we already started them (duh), bring her back if she's not getting better (doi), and have another x-ray in a month. I told his nurse that he needn't worry about her anymore that her PCM would be handling it from now on and would have been handling it from the get go if she hadn't been out of town. Since Delilah was born her PCM (which I changed when she was only 1mth old because the old PCM never got back to us about x-rays and I went to the current PCM to get answers since she was the older girls PCM) has been the only one as diligent as we are about Delilah's health.

So send good thoughts our way that she gets much better before we head to FL on the 14th. I wouldn't want her first trip (and Sophia's) to Disney to be miserable.

It's days like this.....

It's been a rough day, so far. First, I was up before 7am, I hate getting up before 7am. Delilah was coughing up a lung, so I had no choice but to get up. Since I am not a morning person if I get up before 7 I tend to be a bit crabby. After getting everyone around which consisted of many reminders to keep getting ready, we headed out. I had to get gas on the way, so we stopped at the shopette. I paid $3.11 per gallon and realized as I was pulling out that the sign said $3.09 per gallon. I was a little pissed but not dressed to go in and argue. So I let it go and went on to drop the girls at school. After that I decided I get breakfast for Sophia and I out. On our way I realize gas is only $3.04 per gallon OFF POST. Now I am really pissed but there is nothing I can do. We ordered our food and headed home. On our way home the school called, oh shit now what. Aidan has a tummy ache and needs to come home, crap, okay her daddy will come get her. I would have, but I wasn't dressed yet. I call him, have him pick her up and pick up a few items for her on his way home. I guess while they were in the commissary she pooped her pants, diarrhea poor baby. He brings her and the stuff home, gets her in the shower while I am dealing with sick coughing baby and loud obnoxious 2 year old. Things have settled down for now, but I am still tired and bitchy. Which is clearly evident since it is driving me up the wall every time Sophia puts her feet on the glass doors of the tv stand, banging it.

These are the days I will hate him being gone the most. It's not the big things, it's all the little ones. I know soon the sickness in our house will pass and things will go back to normal, but what will happen next year, when he's gone, and we are all sick together for weeks again.... It's days like this that will make me miss him the most.

On Top of All That, There is This....

Delilah probably has pneumonia. We won't know for sure until Monday. Since her appointment was late afternoon Friday the radiologist didn't you know, want to ease our minds or anything. So instead she was prescribed Zithromax AND Amoxicillin to be taken back to back for the next 15days. And she is teething. Fun Fun. Such is life.