Happy Mother's Day....Early

I've always wanted to be a mother. I would say I wanted to be a teacher, a zoo keeper, an accountant, a police officer, but really I only had eyes on being a mom. I wanted many children and I had many dolls I would play with and pretend they were my children. I only had one boy doll and I rarely played with him, girls were just so much better. Each time I became pregnant I wished for a girl. Sometimes I would briefly think of having a son who would be a mama's boy and how nice that would be. But I always wound up wishing for another girl to dress up. Girls clothes are just so much cuter.

My mil told me when I was pregnant with Lilly that I look as if I were carrying a boy. I cried that night I was so sad. I thought for sure she knew, she was older and just knew or so I thought. I was 19, so I didn't know much about being pregnant or being a mom. I was so happy when Lilly was born and Kale said "It's a girl honey! A beautiful baby girl!". I was terrified before she was born that if I had a boy first I would never get my girl. I envision my life as that of the sitcom Malcolm in the Middle. Now almost nine years later I am happy with my four girls. I feel a little sadness for my husband and mil who both would have liked us to have one boy. But there is nothing I can do about it anymore. We are done, it's time to move out of baby stage and prepare ourselves for the hell of teenagers.

Happy Mother's Day (early)! I hope you get whatever it is you want out of your mother's day. As for me, I plan on going to the zoo like I do every year with my girls and my family.