Kale and I used to play games every night. Our normal games were Trivial Pursuit, Rummy, Phase Ten, Skip Bo, Scrabble, and Life. We haven't played a board game in years and we haven't played cards steadily since I was on bed rest while pregnant with Sophia. Everything that used to be great, wonderful, and fun in my life pretty much stopped when we moved to MA and were in recruiting hell. I really resent that time in my life, even if I did meet K during that time. I lost a lot and although I did gain a very good and wonderful friend, I lost a lot of my family and myself being there. I have tired to get it back, but it's been rough and I am not a person who forgives or forgets easily.
I am worried I will get used to Kale being gone and when he comes back I will wish he weren't there. I know what it's like when he's been on leave for a long period of time, he gets on my nerves. I did (jokingly) tell him that if my house stayed really clean the whole time he was gone that I wouldn't let him come home.
I am not the same girl I was 5 years ago when I had to grow up even faster than when I became a mother at 19. I am not the same girl who was so in love with her husband she hated to be apart for more than a day. I am not her anymore. I don't know if I want to be her again, but I would like to think that my husband is my everything again. I am just not sure it's possible.
Lillyanna Margaret
My oldest and bossiest child (so far).
Aidan RoseLynn
My most dramatic and hilarious child.
Sophia Grace
My loudest and sweetest child, quickly becoming the bossiest.
Delilah Annette
My baby, my sweetness, and my quietest child.
Mom & Dad aka Nonnie & Pa
My parents
Jason, Rosy, & Alan
My Brother, Sister-in-law, & Nephew. Rosy came as an exchange student from Mexico a few years ago. She lived with my parents after her host family had troubles. She then met my brother who was still in college and living out of the house. They fell in love and the rest is history.
Green
He came 5yrs ago as an exchange student and has yet to leave. I now consider him my brother.
Ahhh...Ten Years Ago
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Peter and I have only been married for 4 years, so we still hate to be apart for more than a couple of days. Fortunately, he doesn't travel anymore.
I don't know what to tell you, my friend. The longest Peter was ever gone on travel was a period of 8 months where he traveled 2-3 weeks each month. That got old.
Another bloggy friend of mine's husband is in Iraq for a year. You can find her blog in my blogroll uner The Hectic Years. I think she's going through a lot of the same things you are.
i love the game skip bo. :) we used to play games with bryan's dad and step-mom before having kids, and now we only play once in a while, some times we have game night with friends. :)
it is hard to have back the things you had before your life changes with children or more children or other major changes in it... such as your husband being in the military and having to be away from you for long periods of time.
but i'm sure you and kale will be able to find and rekindle that love that you have now when he comes home and it will maybe be even stronger. you know that they say absence makes the heart grow fonder... i kind of believe that. :)
at least you can be honest with yourself and your feelings about it all... and that really helps to be able to address the situation and fix/work on it or at least acknowledge it. :)
life is short... you should try to forgive some... i know it is hard... believe me, i know.
xoxoxo's Jenn
Brad and I have been married for 7 years, and lived together for 2 before that. We were never absolutely inseparable, but there were times that we'd feed each other ice cream and such.
But things simply change. It doesn't mean things are over, just that they're different. You may never go back to your game nights, but that doesn't mean your marriage has died, just that it's matured.
I know exactly what you mean. Chris is a much more angry and negative person since recruiting. It has gatten old trying to pull him back off the ledge. I sometimes just want to say, "JUMP." I realize his life is not what he asked for but what is he doing to change it? My life has changed so much. I have to say the best things I got out of Recruiting were my friendships with you and Kelly. From what I heard, it does get better. I will tell you if I ever find out.
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