Lilly has Mrs. F who I went to school with from 4th grade until graduation. We weren't friends, but she was never mean to me either. We come from similar backgrounds, both of our mothers are teachers and we were middle class. A lot of her friends were rich and bitchy. But they had all gone to school together from kindergarten on up. It was hard for me to get worked in when everyone had been friends since kindergarten. I didn't like it one bit and while I was popular and outgoing before moving, I became very shy and reserved after moving.
I found out she was a teacher at the girl's school when Lilly was in 2nd Grade. I kind of avoided her, that's the shy person still living inside of me. We didn't even speak until Aidan and her son Ty were in the same class last year. And according to Aidan they were "in love". He is a cutie and he adores her to pieces. Even still it wasn't until Fun in the Sun day before we even spoke and that was the end of the year. And now I am going to have to deal with her on a daily basis. I handled it well in my opinion. I didn't even panic when I saw Lilly's name under hers. I knew it was going to be like that, I just knew it. I even knew it would happen like this last year when I thought about Lilly going into fourth grade. It will be okay, at least that's what I keep telling myself.
Can you tell I am one big social mess? I feel like that 9 year old girl again, going into a new class in the middle of the school year. Not knowing anyone and feeling left out. I hate that about myself. I hate having panic attacks before I go places alone where there are other adults I have to socialize with.
To look on the bright side, Lilly's BFF V is in her class again. And Aidan's "love" is in her class again. Lilly will be fine, she always is, she is a brown noser. I know that's kind of mean to say, but it's true. Teachers are her favorite people. Aidan I am a little worried about, she is a wild card. She is a free spirit and is very hard to tame. No one knows this more than I. I am hoping that I am worrying for nothing, I pray I am.
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I would definitely feel weird about that, but you never know how it will turn out. There was a girl I went to school with that I always felt was really mean to me. I got reacquainted with her a few years after we graduated and she was really nice. And I realized that all the things I'd interpreted as her being mean had more to do with my insecurity and her lack thereof. :P
You never know, maybe the two of you will turn into BFF's. :-)
you are totally worrying for little to nothing... it can't be for nothing at all, only b/c to you it is something. BUT i'm sure that the situation will work out just fine with Lilly's teacher... a lot has changed since your school days, and you should have every confidence now... you have a lot going for you and you aren't in competition with anyone... not saying that you ever where, but you had felt left out and all... but now that isn't the case. Think of it as she is working for you, doing something that she needs to please you with. not the other way around any more. she has to fit into your life, your child's life and make you and her happy... the shoe is on the other foot. (i'm not at all trying to degrade teachers, I feel they are irreplaceable and amazing people, some of them at least) But you should hold you head up high and not even second guess anything about your confidence. You are a good person, you are smart, wonderful and beautiful and BEST of all you are a GREAT mother with AMAZING children!! :)
I'm dying to get Trevor's letter from the school to see who he has for his teacher, but it hasn't come just yet. ugh!! I'm sort of dreading this full time kindergarten crap too, although I'm looking forward to some time with one less child at home, I do miss him while he is at school. :(
Anyway... good luck!! (although you don't need it) I'm sure Lilly's teacher is going to be okay and work out fine w/ you and her.
xoxoxooxo
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